I Failed

— basic information

 Name.  Gwalchmei ap Gwyar
‣ Meaning uncertain, though possibly derived from Welsh gwalch meaning "Hawk" and mei meaning "May", the month. Gwyar, comes from old Welsh meaning "Blood" or "Flow/Fluidity" reflecting change, motion, growth and decay. This was the name of a figure from Welsh legend, known as the nephew of King Arthur and one of the knights of the round table
 Nickname(s).  Gwaine (preferred ). Gwal
 Title(s).  Strength. Sir Knight. Sir Gwaine, Knight of Camelot

 Age.  34 (deceased)
 Date of Birth.  TBD
 Zodiac.  TBD
 Place of Birth.  Orkney Isles
 Current Residence.  Camelot

 Gender.  Cis Male
 Orientation.  Pansexual Panromantic

 Universe.  BBCM Forward with Influence from the Legends (Sir Gawain and the Green Knight) and personal interpretation.

— appearance

 Visage.  Dev Patel.
 Eyes.  Coarse, thick black hair that spirals into wild curls often run through with anxious fingers. Windswept, tumbling from the crown like ocean waves crashing into the shore.
 Hair.  Brown eyes. Gentle and dark, glittering like shiny jewels. They hide so much and reveal so little of the man underneath the humour and levity.
 Build.  Broad shoulders and a well-muscled chest that tapers down to soft hips and soft thighs. Strong, muscular legs built for agility and speed rather than brute strength.
 Height.  6'1'' (1.87 m)
 Weight.  TBD
 Skin.  Brown skinned. Calloused and scarred from years on the road. A tapestry of survival carrying echoes of previous injuries and near deaths that were never given the proper time to heal.
 Vocals.  Like running water over coarse stones, slowly eroding them smooth over time. It's deep and honey-warm, sparking with mischief and kindness and capable of the softest whispers.

— personality

 Overview.  A bright, light-hearted individual whose heart burns like an eternal flame. He walks with confidence and a certain swagger that can make you believe he has it all. His smile is full of mischief and warmth, capturing all of his charm and kindness with a single stroke. There is something about him that seems to draw people in. They can't help but turn their heads towards the walking sun that brings laughter wherever he goes.

 Moral Alignment.  Chaotic Good
 Method of Persuasion.  Pathos
 Temperament.  Sanguine
 MBTI.  ESFP, the entertainer
‣ Dominant: Extraverted Sensing (Se)
‣ Auxiliary: Introverted Feeling (Fi)
‣ Tertiary: Extraverted Thinking (Te)
‣ Inferior: Introverted Intuition (Ni)

 Positive Traits. 
+ Extremely loyal to the end. Is absolutely unwavering and complete in his devotion once he has found someone to be loyal to. He will go to the ends of the earth for those he calls his own, more than prepared to die for them and fall upon the sword.

+ A walking sun of positivity, able to draw laughter and smiles even in the times of darkness and despair. He has this quality about him that refuses to be stamped out like a strong flame in the night. He will always find joy and grasp it with his hands, choosing to look towards the silver lining in the sky.

+ He is full of love and love and love. He loves completely and complexly, unafraid in his affections. He will gladly proclaim how much he loves his friends, how amazing he thinks they are and how grateful he is for their presence in his life.

+ A simple man who likes simple things and for things to be simple. He has an easygoing personality that allows him to adapt quickly to any situation. Never truly off guard for very long and always ready with a smile that makes him extremely likeable almost against your better judgement.

+ A truly noble heart despite what he may say otherwise. There is so much good inside of him and he only wishes to help the world become better. To leave it better than it was before.

 Negative. 
- His loyalty is also his downfall. It can blind him and make him do terrible things in the name of those he has sworn loyalty to.

- A deeply embedded self-hatred that pervades his every interaction. It burns at him, rotting him from the inside out even as he smile.

- An extremely private person who shares little of his burdens and vulnerabilities. He has difficulty opening up and communicating his problems, too used to dealing with things on his own and keeping things close to his chest.

- A surprising amount of anger that burns inside of his ribs. Sparking with his love and his passion like a dying star, threatening to explode and scorch the very earth he treads.

- Unfailingly self-sacrificial. Would rather push his body into a blade for any man than see them die. He chases after death though he would never admit to it outright.

Under Construction.

— the author

 Name.  Coslyn
 Gender.  Non-binary (She/Them)
 Age.  23
 Timezone.  PST
 Activity.  Slow
 Selectivity.  High (Mutuals Only)

— policies

 Disclaimer. 
‣ Gwaine is primarily based around his BBC incarnation, but takes influence from the Arthurian legends and my own personal interpretation. A lot of liberties have been taken and it may not be the most historically accurate presentation, but it's mine.

 Triggers. 
‣ All triggers will be tagged in the following format:  trigger /. I ask that all images of BLOOD be tagged. Verbal description is fine. If you have a specific trigger you would like me to tag or I have been remiss in my tagging, please inform me and I shall rectify it immediately.

 Shipping. 
‣ Shipping is not the main focus of the blog. Any ships that develop will be based on chemistry and development.

 NSFW Content. 
‣ This blog will feature content that is not safe for work (violence, torture, alcoholism etc.) but no sexual content will be present on this blog.

 Etiquette. 
‣ Basic roleplay etiquette goes as follows: don't godmod, don't metagame, don't reblog ooc posts or threads not related to you.

 Threads. 
‣ I am primarily a para writer and tend to write a lot. While I expect my partners to try and match, there is an emphasis on try and it's honestly rarely an issue. Quality over quantity, and all that. While this blog is not strictly plotted-threads-only yet, it definitely is my preference so feel free to jump into my IMs to hash something out between us. This blog is primarily for friends and is extremely selective.

 Stylization. 
‣ I stylize my text quite a bit (small text + extra spacing between words). If that's difficult to read for you, please inform me and I'll adjust accordingly. I do not expect the same from you.

 Asks. 
Asks will be answered in a separate post and are free to continue as an actual thread!

— prelude

 Timeline.  Pre S1.
 Age.  0-18
 Basic.  His father died leaving them penniless. Their mother? Distant and grieving. He's a family man, entirely devoted to his three brothers and sisters who he had to raise in the wake of everything. He doesn't know what he wants to do, but there are more pressing matters. Food on the table, money under their cots. They make a living and Gwaine teaches himself how to swing a sword and offers his services to anyone who would listen.

— the wanderer

 Timeline.  3-4.
 Age.  18-30
 Basic.  At eighteen, he leaves the castaway village Caerleon left his family to die in. His brothers are not so little anymore and with such a small abode, it's hard to stay there. Clarissant gives him their father's sword and her eyes, onyx and hard, tells him to find his way. So he explores the world. Allows the wind take him where it will. He finds his way through the taverns and causes chaos wherever he goes. Some call him a scoundrel, other's a very good man. One day, he will meet a prince and his manservant and he'll be pulled into Camelot's drama before being banished. Twice. He does not know what he's doing, only that he has to do it.

— knight of camelot

 Timeline.  S4-5.
 Age.  30-34
 Basic.  He never thought he'd be here. Somehow he goes from the nothing pit to helping save Camelot from an immortal army. His time with the knights is filled with adventure and danger. It's fun. It's worrying. Fraught with people who he's beginning to care for like family. He will die, one day. He'll fail. But we don't talk about that.

— green knight

 Timeline.  S4.5.
 Age.  ~32
 Basic.  It happens during their New Years banquet. A knight dressed in the deepest emerald green walks into their halls and proposes a challenge to test the merit of Arthur's knights. Gwaine takes the gauntlet before anyone else can. It's a long story, one that involves beheading, kissing and a test of one's loyalty.

— modern

 Basic.  Gwaine is a freelance fashion photographer who is often pulled around the world for various jobs and shoots. He lives in a cramped flat in London, head down and pouring over photographs as the world passes him buy. He makes friends, fools around and lives life like it's the last day he has on earth. It's a whirlwind existence, but it's his.

— reincarnation

 Basic.  The Nathair leaves a scar on his soul. Gwaine comes back often, his soul being reborn across the centuries, but he will never remember. He'll remember the pain, the nightmares and his failure, but he can never remember them. Faces flash past his eyes, but he looks upon his friends with a casual smile and no recognition. He'll die. He always will. He's never meant to live for very long.